Whisper to a Scream

finally, it will be the end of the second week of spm. gahh, these several days have been torturing enough. dont think i can handle another week of this, pfft. but what can i do, i just have to go through it for another three more days maybe? well, yeah. excluding tomorrow of course. had agama on the first day of this week, then add maths, followed by physics. tomorrow, chemistry plak. tough week huh? pfft tell me abt it :/

havent been going online for about six seven days. not that i decided to not go online, it was because i couldnt as my streamyx kena potong, har har. but somehow, i thank my mom for not paying it up so i could concentrate more on my studies. haha, who am i kidding? yeah right. now, dah dpt balik streamyx, terus online pfft -.-' not good nis, not good!

well, since i havent been going online, obviously i havent logged in my myspace account. planned to log in till spm ends but i guess that didnt work. i had to log in to spread the flyers around about our school prom night. hah, so much for that lah kan :l but before i actually logged in, i just typed out someone's myspace url and bang, he uploaded a new picture. damn, it was a picture of him with his gorilla friend and pffffffft, with a girl between them. i seriously think that that picture is the first ever picture with a girl that he had put up. now, isnt that smthg? bodoh ah. dah la i dislike that bloody kid pfft. no, am not jealous or whatever (im not?) , its just that i didnt like the fact that its 'her'. shes not even close to that friggin guy pun. ive had enough of you stealing his friend away from me pfft. it makes me sick to even think about it. go to hell lah bdk kecik. pergi main jauh-jauh sana shoo.

fcuk him for still not wishing me any good luck during my spm week. fuck you wey. yet, abu kept telling me to think of another way. he said, 'nis, can you think of it this way? like he was kind of one of the early ones who had wished you goodluck. he had prepared his lucks for you at the early stage already. he even wished you many times already' (something like that lah). pfft, i hate it when he always wants me to think of the bright side, that maybe he could be right pfft. though, i still syg you for being there for me yo. anyway, well yeah, he didnt wish me but he did drop me a comment though. he said that he hasnt heard about me, from a spm student for quite some time daa. pfft, mmg lah? dah tgh spm kot? you pun tak de usaha nak dgr crita from i, carik pasal plak :/ well, in a way, thats what i replied to him back. oh well, lets just see what hed reply soon, if he's even planning to reply lah, hah.



If we get through tomorrow then we'll be fine.
We'll wait for forever and see how close we get.
It's just another day, one more chance to get this right.
I'll sacrifice forever, please just for a night with you.