waiting, waiting patiently. curiosity might kill me as well. curious how you would react and what you would say back to me. here's the thing, it all started when ive been such a rebellious sister to my brother.
well, things have been different since he came back from the states for years and those years have been the peek of my life. it was the time where ive changed to a teenager from a kid. it was also the time where ive became more matured than i was in primary. the time where my family and friends were at the top of my life, and still are. what im trying to say is family and friends have been there for me during those years when i was growing till now except for one fella, my brother.
it saddens me that things have been quite different than it used to be. i remember those times when we were kids, those times where we had fun like mad between the two of us. but now, he has grown up and so have i. it is so hard for me to let this out but we barely talk. i mean, we do talk but not talk like heart to heart kind of talk. is it normal for a sister to not tell her brother whats going on in her life? sometimes, i feel like i am still a beginner in having a brother.
hmm, okayh i think i went overboard already. am supposed to be talking abt some other guy, not my brother for god sake. anyways, where was i? oh yeah. as i was saying that i was rebellious to my brother (still am pfft), because ive been going online everyday which ive made a deal with him that i am able to go online during the weekends only. but heh, my bad for loving the net too much. well, he knew that ive been going online lately and have threatened me to take away my laptop. so, after hearing that line, ive decided to hid my laptop. it worked for several days where no one bothered to nag or warn me for not going online quietly in my room. basically, everything went well till yesterday evening. i wish i had not asked my brother to send me to tuition haihh. this is what happened.
i was basically late for tuition and demanded my brother to send me there while he was busy with his room, rearranging stuff if im not mistaken. had to wait for him to give me the answer cause i didnt want to bug him. he definitely wont send me if that happens. well, after waiting for toooo long, forced him to send me jugak. he got sick of me kot and took the car keys and sent me off. on the way to tuition, he mentioned something abt him taking the laptop that night which was last night. ignored him so whatever lah. tuition learn learn bla bla blaa. on the way back, mom picked me up. we were just talking like we always do but then, she suddenly asked 'where did you put the laptop?'. from there, i knew my brother have been trying to look for my laptop as i was away to tuition. she wouldnt asked if my brother hadnt asked or complained to her. i went up to my room and realized that my room was in a mess! checked my laptop, thank god it was still at the place where i hid it. unfortunately, he had found my cable/wire that enables my laptop to function for a long time. that thing is pretty important too. i got so pissed off and went down to his room and yelled at him.
my mind was so messed up. i cant help from thinking that ill be losing someone after what just happened. this is because the net is the only way we talk believe it or not. and oh trust me, it sucks big time! i panicked as i know i cant do anything about it. i know trying to look for my wire back would take a longgg time and knowing my brother, he would hid it somewhere hard for me to find it as i am good at hiding stuff too. (at least we have something in common ey) my laptop was full recharged but it can only last for one hour and several minutes. i went online and gosh, i saw him online. i knew i needed to tell him and explain things that might happen after an hour and several minutes after using my laptop. i said hi to him to complain the shits that had happened actually but one second before i pressed enter, his status was away. aaaargh i felt. i slapped myself and hated time at that moment as i was running out of time. but hey, he actually replied. saying something about trials' over and i should really go out. (is it a way for him to ask me out? haha, i wish) unfortunately, that was it. i replied but he didnt. guess he was really away huh. not surprised he went out with gorey cause gorey's status changed to away too. well, whatever lah. all i could think of was myspace. so, went straight to his page and clicked 'send message'. without thinking, just typed what i feel like typing. was trying to explain that i cant go online anymore and so, i wanted his number to keep in touch. yes, i actually asked for it. *knock myself on the wall.
i actually told him how many minutes i have left and when im done with the msg, i asked for baiti's opinion and she said it seems alright and pap, i sent it. :O yeah, i sent it. shit, i thought. why laa after sending that msg baru i wanted to regret. before that, i had the guts to actually send it and all pfft. well, theres no turning back time right? well, i just waited for him to go online but sadly, he didnt go online. bloody hell lah. i was in front of the laptop like a crazy maniac waiting for some rain during the drought while he was out there, chilling with his friends. well, im just assuming lah, im sure laah.
thenn, kakak was home that particular night, with her laptop. the same brand as mine. that means, i can actually sue her wire to go online till whenever i want. that means that i can actually still go online for the weekend also, aargh. after knowing that, i felt silly for sending him the message. he would think im such a liar for telling him that i only had a couple of minutes left to go online. thanks to kakak, she actually let me use her laptop throughout the whole weekend. i did use hers but mine was on too. haha, i dont know what was i thinking. but mcm best guna two laptops at the same time hahaha weirddd ;)
that night, i needed some of my friends' opinion about what ive done. tried calling baiti, but she didnt pick up. since it was already late, didnt want to bother zan and lyn. since ieka was online, i talked to her about it. then, i told waniey about it. overall, ieka and wney rocks! :)
it was morning already and by that, i mean 2ish in the morning. another few hours to sahur. i was all alone jgak la. everyone went off except for a few people and that includes gorey. gorey said hi and all and ajak-ed to sahur along with him and blong. yeah baby, blong okayyh haha. the whole plan was blong will be picking me up around 4ish with his car, roar haha. and sahur somewhere in subang or maybe pj. gorey asked me to confirm things with him around 315am. but before it was even 3, gorey called me saying that all of the guys are joining. omar, alan, lala, blong's two brothers and including him of course. that means theres no space for me in blong's car unless i follow his friend's car lah. hell no, i said. haihhh. so, there goes my plan pfft. but at the same time, it would be pretty weird if he already read the msg and pick me up and get something to eat. hehe. eh wait, not reallyyy hmmm.
anyways, after sahur, i was still online since i still had kakak's laptop with me. i checked my sent msgs at myspace like maddd. everytime i checked it, the status of msg was still 'sent', instead of 'read'. at the same time, i was so sleeeepy. i couldnt really sleep as i kept on waking up and straightly go to my sent msgs pfft. i remember waking up 8 times to check my messages. haihh yes, i was so paranoid.
the next day, it was time for kakak to go back perakk. noooo ;( well, at least i got to go online during the weekend huh, thanks kak. my laptop was even fully charged. kissed her and my goodbyes and there goes her laptop, haha. hmmm. its been two days and one night he still hadnt go online. i wonder whyy. since im depending on my laptop's battery, i knew i had to berjimat-cermat when using the laptop. on that sunday night, went online for about ten minutes. didnt sign in my myspace account cause i decided not to. so, i just typed his url in the space given and daymn, got to know he went online that day. so, im pretty sure he read my msg already aaaa. now, i just wanna know what he had replied BADLY. aaaargh. but i can only find out this weekend. cause i wanted to, heh. even though its torturing me, but lets make him wait ey (:
*woah, did i just type all of this? woahhh :l
well, things have been different since he came back from the states for years and those years have been the peek of my life. it was the time where ive changed to a teenager from a kid. it was also the time where ive became more matured than i was in primary. the time where my family and friends were at the top of my life, and still are. what im trying to say is family and friends have been there for me during those years when i was growing till now except for one fella, my brother.
it saddens me that things have been quite different than it used to be. i remember those times when we were kids, those times where we had fun like mad between the two of us. but now, he has grown up and so have i. it is so hard for me to let this out but we barely talk. i mean, we do talk but not talk like heart to heart kind of talk. is it normal for a sister to not tell her brother whats going on in her life? sometimes, i feel like i am still a beginner in having a brother.
hmm, okayh i think i went overboard already. am supposed to be talking abt some other guy, not my brother for god sake. anyways, where was i? oh yeah. as i was saying that i was rebellious to my brother (still am pfft), because ive been going online everyday which ive made a deal with him that i am able to go online during the weekends only. but heh, my bad for loving the net too much. well, he knew that ive been going online lately and have threatened me to take away my laptop. so, after hearing that line, ive decided to hid my laptop. it worked for several days where no one bothered to nag or warn me for not going online quietly in my room. basically, everything went well till yesterday evening. i wish i had not asked my brother to send me to tuition haihh. this is what happened.
i was basically late for tuition and demanded my brother to send me there while he was busy with his room, rearranging stuff if im not mistaken. had to wait for him to give me the answer cause i didnt want to bug him. he definitely wont send me if that happens. well, after waiting for toooo long, forced him to send me jugak. he got sick of me kot and took the car keys and sent me off. on the way to tuition, he mentioned something abt him taking the laptop that night which was last night. ignored him so whatever lah. tuition learn learn bla bla blaa. on the way back, mom picked me up. we were just talking like we always do but then, she suddenly asked 'where did you put the laptop?'. from there, i knew my brother have been trying to look for my laptop as i was away to tuition. she wouldnt asked if my brother hadnt asked or complained to her. i went up to my room and realized that my room was in a mess! checked my laptop, thank god it was still at the place where i hid it. unfortunately, he had found my cable/wire that enables my laptop to function for a long time. that thing is pretty important too. i got so pissed off and went down to his room and yelled at him.
my mind was so messed up. i cant help from thinking that ill be losing someone after what just happened. this is because the net is the only way we talk believe it or not. and oh trust me, it sucks big time! i panicked as i know i cant do anything about it. i know trying to look for my wire back would take a longgg time and knowing my brother, he would hid it somewhere hard for me to find it as i am good at hiding stuff too. (at least we have something in common ey) my laptop was full recharged but it can only last for one hour and several minutes. i went online and gosh, i saw him online. i knew i needed to tell him and explain things that might happen after an hour and several minutes after using my laptop. i said hi to him to complain the shits that had happened actually but one second before i pressed enter, his status was away. aaaargh i felt. i slapped myself and hated time at that moment as i was running out of time. but hey, he actually replied. saying something about trials' over and i should really go out. (is it a way for him to ask me out? haha, i wish) unfortunately, that was it. i replied but he didnt. guess he was really away huh. not surprised he went out with gorey cause gorey's status changed to away too. well, whatever lah. all i could think of was myspace. so, went straight to his page and clicked 'send message'. without thinking, just typed what i feel like typing. was trying to explain that i cant go online anymore and so, i wanted his number to keep in touch. yes, i actually asked for it. *knock myself on the wall.
i actually told him how many minutes i have left and when im done with the msg, i asked for baiti's opinion and she said it seems alright and pap, i sent it. :O yeah, i sent it. shit, i thought. why laa after sending that msg baru i wanted to regret. before that, i had the guts to actually send it and all pfft. well, theres no turning back time right? well, i just waited for him to go online but sadly, he didnt go online. bloody hell lah. i was in front of the laptop like a crazy maniac waiting for some rain during the drought while he was out there, chilling with his friends. well, im just assuming lah, im sure laah.
thenn, kakak was home that particular night, with her laptop. the same brand as mine. that means, i can actually sue her wire to go online till whenever i want. that means that i can actually still go online for the weekend also, aargh. after knowing that, i felt silly for sending him the message. he would think im such a liar for telling him that i only had a couple of minutes left to go online. thanks to kakak, she actually let me use her laptop throughout the whole weekend. i did use hers but mine was on too. haha, i dont know what was i thinking. but mcm best guna two laptops at the same time hahaha weirddd ;)
that night, i needed some of my friends' opinion about what ive done. tried calling baiti, but she didnt pick up. since it was already late, didnt want to bother zan and lyn. since ieka was online, i talked to her about it. then, i told waniey about it. overall, ieka and wney rocks! :)
it was morning already and by that, i mean 2ish in the morning. another few hours to sahur. i was all alone jgak la. everyone went off except for a few people and that includes gorey. gorey said hi and all and ajak-ed to sahur along with him and blong. yeah baby, blong okayyh haha. the whole plan was blong will be picking me up around 4ish with his car, roar haha. and sahur somewhere in subang or maybe pj. gorey asked me to confirm things with him around 315am. but before it was even 3, gorey called me saying that all of the guys are joining. omar, alan, lala, blong's two brothers and including him of course. that means theres no space for me in blong's car unless i follow his friend's car lah. hell no, i said. haihhh. so, there goes my plan pfft. but at the same time, it would be pretty weird if he already read the msg and pick me up and get something to eat. hehe. eh wait, not reallyyy hmmm.
anyways, after sahur, i was still online since i still had kakak's laptop with me. i checked my sent msgs at myspace like maddd. everytime i checked it, the status of msg was still 'sent', instead of 'read'. at the same time, i was so sleeeepy. i couldnt really sleep as i kept on waking up and straightly go to my sent msgs pfft. i remember waking up 8 times to check my messages. haihh yes, i was so paranoid.
the next day, it was time for kakak to go back perakk. noooo ;( well, at least i got to go online during the weekend huh, thanks kak. my laptop was even fully charged. kissed her and my goodbyes and there goes her laptop, haha. hmmm. its been two days and one night he still hadnt go online. i wonder whyy. since im depending on my laptop's battery, i knew i had to berjimat-cermat when using the laptop. on that sunday night, went online for about ten minutes. didnt sign in my myspace account cause i decided not to. so, i just typed his url in the space given and daymn, got to know he went online that day. so, im pretty sure he read my msg already aaaa. now, i just wanna know what he had replied BADLY. aaaargh. but i can only find out this weekend. cause i wanted to, heh. even though its torturing me, but lets make him wait ey (:
*woah, did i just type all of this? woahhh :l
